Thursday, February 03, 2005

What a wasted life !




Gaurav (I've not changed the name), clumsy, shabbily dressed lad many years senior to me.His dressing sense was/is weird .

He was(he'z alive but I'm still using 'was', patience) a child prodigy , have heard some real weird stories about him. He was working on a mathematical problem one night, slept without breaking it , woke up at two pm again & cracked it. He later recounted that Goddess Saraswati came in his dreams & helped him have a bite at the problem. I'm sure you'll agree that dreaming about Saraswati is cool but girls do top the chart , any boy's around who say NO ?

His adventures continued , he solved XII standard mathematics problems when he was in class IV, hmm thats too much. He was sure to get into the IIT's & he didn't disappoint his fans . He scored an incredible all India rank(It was somewhere in the eighty's). Got into IIT-Kanpur & enrolled in the Computer Science branch.

I at this junction lost contact with him but my Dad didn't allow me to forget him. "Look at youself, you $#@%! & see Gaurav , you'r a useless creature on earth :( ".Heard he consumed too much liquor there & started loosing his enigma.
After completing his Engineering he joined a Software Company in Ghaziabad(a town near Delhi). He worked there for some time & since it was not Maths he left it & came back home.

Then suddenly we heard that he was writing the India Administrative Service exam, he didn't disappoint his fans again & got through in the first attempt . This time though he landed up with a rank that could pull him only to the Custom's department. He had again chosen Mathematics as one of his subjects. My Dad was no less happy & his craving grew for sons who could become an I.A.S officer.

Close sources later revealed that he wrote the exam again & scored a similar rank much to his/family/good/bad wishers disappointment. He was aiming for the bulls eye, but then he accepted his fate & now I hear he's an officer with the customs department. The average salary is not more than twenty thousand per month but who the hell wants that. The prime attraction is the 'power' that come along, the servants , the pristine white ambassador car with a red light on top of it , the black money , the ... , so little for a guy who deserved much more.


A wasted life which is now poised to be soaked in the corrupt bureaucracy , the babus .. . Mathematics his passion is seen no where(may be a little comes in handy when we count currency).Another mathematician goes awry, never to be heard of again . Not sure if it was his decision Or his parents Or .. but the scientific community did loose a gem.

I'm no Chomsky to propose some grammar & my talent shies away when I look up to him but my heart still feels that he would have been much better if he was to join some research lab or anything that would have given him a bed to develop his mathematical skills so rare to be found. May be he'll sue me for defaming him, but I'm sure I'll muster courage & speak out" What a wasted life !!".